First of all... brrrr.
I thought a thing last night. Golly, my posterity must be super d duper significant because the thought was that I had been given a great blessing to be able to communicate my thoughts and feelings far longer than I ever lived. And if I am not present, I still am through my words.
Growing up, I knew that I was being nurtured for some great purpose, and I got a bit ego centric, hah! Funny how ego has the same letters as geo, and that was what I was thinking to use as a paradigm. I honestly believed thst every time our family moved it was for my benefit so that, like Abraham and Sarah, I could sort of nomadically have the greatest teachers in this world... don't tell the teachers that though, it might backfire.
Now, I see that I was preserved and prepared in such ways, but it is not all about me or I (dad used to challenge me to try talking without the word I. That's likely a reason why royalty uses the pronoun "we"). I was so frustated that I could never do what I wanted with my talents, but when I would not stop trying, I got a freak illness of the central nervous system that did not kill me, but limited my abilities so that I might focus them on my posterity.
I felt bad spending so much time looking up things on my ancestors, then I realized they are yours, too, and likely why I am so blessed in doing it. I should.
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Right now, I am feeling very strange, maybe I will have to write a song. I have an overwhelming feeling inside of me that I need to let out. I wonder if this is what causes violence. I need to express something, but I do not know how. I usually cut my hair or something drastic as a way to change things that visibly demonstrate my power over things. I noticed this morning, too a strange thing. Mary was playing with my little snapchat features, and I noticed that "good" angels have wings and "bad" ones don't. Ofcourse! I thought, it symbolizes freedom, much like Eagles do for Americans. There is a scripture thay comes to mind:
"O that I were an angel, and could have the wish of mine heart"
(From Alma 29)
It is pretty neat that we do not have to memorize verbatim every scripture to benefit from it, and I can easily find it whenever I want. This leaves my brain free to persue other things. I bet I would be seen as a God to past civilizations with all my technical marvels. It is not hard at all to see how God is able to do so many of the things that he does, and that is a clear indication that mortality is working. We are becoming more like him through living!
Now, I am going to go write a bit of flowery text somewhere...
