Dinner fail

This just happened, so no time to pause and filter my response to make it more acceptable.

I really want to just leave and take my chances to whether I live or die, I owe absolutely nothing to Nick anyhow, although I did promise to be his legal wife, and my resposibility towards the children is such a strong tie that I cannot do anything that would effect them negatively,  like admiting to them that I hate their father. Alright, why I am more upset right now:

We were asked where we wanted to go to eat, so I explained where the kids wanted to go and why, and he said it was fine.  So, I scoured the web for coupons, then took a nap. Nick messaged me that he was going to cancel the excursion because of snow. So, I just informed him that it was sunny here and had been all day. But, I got out the food I had prepared, but then he said, "nevermind we will go." So, I did not know what we were doing. I told the kids such. Then, he got home much earlier than he normally does with no explination, so, I just got the kids dressed and ready. Mary was so excited cause she is what my mom used to call a "go girl". We drove to the parking lot of Chuck E. Cheese and it looked very busy so he said that we could not go. Then, he asked where we wanted to go after I had already said a sensible option of hetting a pizza and eating at home while playing a game. Nick did not want to do this. Mary was bawling her eyes out. The first few choices were instantly rejected, so I figured that he already had made up his mind where he wanted to go, but I learned from studying Alma that regardless how a person seems to have decided they must be allowed to actually choose such to deserve their following consequence (story of Alma and Amulek regarding their not saving the Christians who were to be put to death by fire). He had actually asked is where we wanted to go, so we needed to decide. The kids decided exactly what they wanted to do (go to McDonald's Play Place to eat) although they did not reject my idea either of getting a pizza and going home. Joseph did start saying that he was sooooo hungry and just wanted any resturaunt really, meaning a sit down meal. But, Nick had already decided where he wanted to go. So, he went there and Mary cried even more and Nick only got food for himself, and this made Joseph start to complain now, too. So, he then went to a Wendy's drive thru,  and got something for the kids who started devouring immediately, but I think that he took their drink, too cause I had to get drinks for them once they got home. So, now we are back home, where we were to begin with only now, any hope we had for the potential of a fun excursion was gone, so we are sort of worse off than we were and I am left with disconsolate children, and absolutely no faith in my husband anymore. So, I can start planning how to leave him but keep the kids, they deserve a better example and want to be sealed as a family, and for that reason I keep hoping things will work out. I must believe in God or else I would not feel any debt towards this family, but I do because I promised to guide the children to the sort of life they were intended to live and understand.