Just a little girl

I think I am all grown up simply because I have matured to the point where I can communicate with words. But can I really? My abilities with words is no where near my ability to communicate in music. Yet, I fail to see a larger scheme of things and how inability to use my greater talents is a good thing like a little girl who does not understand punishment and thinks it is done out of meanness.

When I was a teenager I had a strange image impressed on my mind. I tried to write about it, but my words came out a poetry about " enlightened grains of sand " cause I was trying to express through allusion the words recorded in the book of Abraham. Later, I realized not many would even understand me and some would even read it and think I was some brilliant poet. I still suspect someone will when they find my (I laugh to recall it) missing oratorio about the city of Enoch. I loved one piece cause of the language." How is it that the heavens shed forth their tears as rain upon the mountain and Lord how is it that thou candy weep?" or something.
Anyhow, I somehow contracted a rare type of enchiphilitis(sp?).  (https://youtu.be/qbkgj5J91hE)
And was blessed to be rendered useless as far as composing any more music goes. Instead I write words and try to develop that ability. Yesterday, I read a children's book "Knuffle Bunny" and in the story a little girl is frantically trying to communicate but does not have the whole language thing down. (https://youtu.be/I3CeOUxPCjs) sure, it is humorous and entertaining but is was the source of my mini ah hah! I realized that in the grand scheme (meaning eternal) of things I was still a very little girl and need not worry about so many of the things I consume my time with. What use is it anyway. God promised that if I did certain things then I would achieve certain things, most important to me is bring truly loved...which includes being understood, but really a girl is not ready to be understood yet, and I was given such great opportunities, one of the best one of being able to accomplish things. I do not doubt that in the least. No thing is truly impossible for me IF I simply keep my end of the deal which seems quite doable